What's going on

So here's my thing. I'm 26, I have been dating for almost ten years and I've always dated men. Granted, the relationships never lasted very long, the longest just barely making the two month mark and I was never invested in the relationship, but I always assumed that I was with the wrong guy and eventually the right one would come along and I'd actually care about the relationship. That hasn't happened. Instead, my brother caused me to start questioning my sexual orientation. He did this simply by teasing me about being a woman studying forestry. Clearly, I'm a lesbian.

If only it was that simple.

I don't know if I'm gay, but I do know that I'm not straight. My sexuality remains somewhere in the grey areas, at least for now. I have no idea if it's just a transitional phase or if I'm bisexual to a degree. What I do know is that I am attracted to women, find men attractive, but have no desire to have sex with men. I haven't yet dated a woman nor have I had sex with one, so I don't know if I'll actually enjoy being with a woman, but I really think I will, aside from all that fun judgement and discrimination from society. But I live in Canada, so it won't be all that bad.

I've met a girl. We met online and we've since hung out a couple of times. She's gay, but not out. I have no idea where that's leading. We have a great time together and we have so much in common it's always a little surprising. But I don't really feel a physical attraction to her. Which might be mostly to do with me, since I've put on weight and don't feel terribly attractive at the moment and so don't expect others to find me attractive and, therefore, subconsciously suppress any attraction I feel towards others.

And, yes, I do have a degree in psychology. I analyse, deal with it.