I think I messed up

So, I've been hanging out with this girl, we'll call her M, over the last month or so as we get along amazingly, we have so much in common it's a constant surprise to me. At first, I wasn't really interested in anything more than friendship, but the more I hang out with her, the more she reels me in. So, it was a kind of friend's birthday on the weekend and that same night, I had plans to go to a play with M. Since the bar my friend's birthday bash was at was really close to where the play was showing and because I wanted to spend some more time with her, I invited M to join us and she did. Fun was had. We went to the play and then called it an early night because I have finals to study for.

But one of my friends, we'll call her K, sent me a text message saying she was going to the bar for our friend's birthday and wondered if I was coming. Since I had been bugging this friend early that day that we'd never had a drink together, I couldn't say I wasn't going to come out. So I texted M and invited her back to the bar. She joined us again. Yay!

So K and I work together and we have a great time together, always joking around and teasing each other. And we can be pretty hands on sometimes, you know, hugs, arm around the shoulders, just goofing around. Apparently more so when we're drinking. Now, I can be a very touchy friend, just little touches on the back/shoulder/arm. But only once I'm comfortable with a person and sure that they won't mind. I've only known M for a couple of months and things are definitely on a different level, so I have been careful not to be too hands on so far. Meaning, she doesn't know that I'm normally like that.

So, we're all at the bar and having a good time. I introduce M around, no one knows she's gay and no one knows that I think I am. So they guys are talking to M and I'm thinking 'ah, you poor bastards' and I'm just having a good time and joking with my friends. K is hugging me quite a bit and touching and I'm not really thinking anything of it. Some of the guys are hugging me a bit too, no big deal. At one point, K hugs me so enthusiastically that I lose my balance and nearly spill my drink.

I'm trying to hang around M because even though she fits right in and seems to be having a great time, she's never met these people before and is there because I invited her. But I did spend a fair bit of time talking to the girls while she was talking with the guys.

The part where I think I messed up is that now, with a clear head, I'm wondering if I gave her the impression that I'm into K. Which I'm not, we're friends and K is straight (supposedly) and I'm not interested in her. Or any of the guys that were there. And I feel guilty and horrible because how bad would it be to invite someone out and then make it clear - in their mind at any rate - that you were into someone else?

Why are things so complicated? I really hope it's just my over-thinking that's making it so complicated. And I did leave with her. All the other girls, including K, left before us and we left together. That's got to show for something.

Ugh, we'll see how things go.

Oh, and I have a rescheduled breakfast date with that guy I met in a coffeeshop since last week didn't work out and I still don't want to go, but feel like I really should. I really miss that days when life was simpler and I just had to listen to what my parents told me.