My girlfriend is leaving

I am going through a rather stressful time for many reasons that I don't have the time to divulge right now. One of the reasons, however, is my girlfriend is leaving town for a week and a half and will return just in time for me to start my fall semester at university meaning that my free time will be greatly diminished.

I'll try to explain why this sucks so much. First off, I've never been in a serious relationship before because I've only just realized that I'm gay and as such couldn't convince myself to feel seriously for any of the men I dated. And I was always grateful when they left town because it gave me a much wanted break from them. Second, I've never been in love before. Third, we've never gone more than a couple of days without seeing each other let alone a week and a half. Fourth, I hate not being able to see her over the rare two or three day periods when we just can't get together so how I am supposed to manage a week and a half apart. Fifth, she's been sleeping over at least one night of every weekend lately and I find it odd an uncomfortable when we can't spend the night together on weekends and that has nothing to do with sex because we haven't really had sex. Sixth, we spent the night together on Saturday and had a really good conversation, one of those that just makes you fall deeper and makes the relationship feel stronger and more secure.

I'm going to be in a bad mood from the time she leaves until she gets back and it's going to be horrible. I'm sad just thinking about not seeing her for that long. And, having a degree in psychology and being overly analytical of everything I say, do, and feel, I can't help but wonder if we're (read: I) are getting a little too co-dependent and this break might actually be good for us. Good or not, I'm going to miss her like hell.

Love is definitely the most amazing thing I have ever felt, but you know that old cliche about love being a bitch? It's so true. Love is a bitch, but I'm love's bitch.